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Name: Chris
Birthday: 5/5/1988
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Saturday, November 11, 2006

I wonder how many people still use xanga nowadays...updated for the people I said I would 

I had a very ambiguous week or school year so far for that matter. in the beginning of college and until now, i was pursuing a pharmacy major. Then, work started to pile up and the days was shorter than ever. Those 1 o clock mornings mornings became 3 o clock mornings then became daily 3 o clock studying periods. I guess that what college is all about. The stress finally got to me though and blah I started to reconsider my major. At first, I wasn't sure if it was because I was overwelmed by the stress or maybe my heart just wasnt in it anymore. My exams started to roll in and then I learned the studying never stops. esp with that random october blizzard that gave me two snow days but it threw off my schedule of tests and exams. At first, I thought it was a gift from God but it ended up back firing and all the exams were pushed into consecutive fridays on top of the regular workload. anyways... I started praying to God about this, just asking God to give me confidence that I know my future is in his hands.  Slowly, I started losing faith and tried to take everything into my own hands. My scores were coming back each time lower than the first. Studying harder just seemed to make the score worst. Then instead of praying to God, it became complaining to God. Each time, I would go home angry and frusterated, taking those isolated walks home from the library. This occured for weeks whille I kept this to myself for the most part. Last Friday, I had a 33 chapter Bio exam and spent constant nights studying for it. Finally the day of the exam, I had a fever and grimy cough due to the lack of sleep and cold walks home. That when I finaly crashed and was sick of everything I worked for and didnt get. That week or this week, I couldnt take it anymore and just didnt care about anything. I wanted to give up.. I lost motivation to study. I even went to praying meeting that I normally go too and just decided to leave early because i was like why am i here. I was negative about everything for the past few days.  I didn't want to talk to anyone not even God. Then I got my exam score a few days ago from the exam i took with the fever. I scored a 33/100, dont know if that was because of the fever or because i just didnt study enough. I went from bad to worse. I felt like everything that could have gone bad, did go bad. Then today was the last day to resign the class. If I were to resign the class, then I would have a very low percentage of getting into the pharmacy career at UB. I went to talk to advisors everywhere around campus, even people i didnt know. No one gave me real advice... and time was running out. The simple problem became a life decision...To drop out..change majors..or stay in and maybe pull my grades up. Also had a chem exam today so it even gave me little time to decide what to do. ...after many conversations and moments to myself..
....i just decided to drop the class thereby dropping my pharmacy dream at UB. In a way, i do feel relieved but on the other hand..what am i goin to do with my life now? Maybe God had this in store for me the whole time and this was just a wake up call. Maybe he was watching me the whole time even as i was a child walking in the wrong direction. Now, my future really lies in God hands because i have no sense of direction of what i want to be. After all the frustrations, i do want to thank God for answering my prayers. I was angry at him for trying to tell me something i needed to hear. I guess life took a funny spin..What next in life?

ok...i feel a little better now getting my thoughts out there. I don't know if this entry makes sense to anyone else..thanks to those who comforted me


Sunday, September 03, 2006

Mission Update

(this might look familar)

                                                                                                                                    

                                                                                                                                             September 3, 2006

Dear Brothers and Sisters,
 

    Hong Kong was definitely the way to end my summer, not only did I get to go to Hong Kong with my best friends, but also with the purpose to serve God. Thank you to all who supported me through prayer and finances. It was such an eye opening experience and I still don’t know how to describe all of it. With all that happened, one thing is certain,   *GOD IS GOOD!

Before all this began, I was debating if I should even participate in missions. My heart was in and out of the idea. I wanted to go but I also didn’t want to spend that much of my summer away from family and friends, especially with it being my last summer before college. Even after I decided, but before training, I was afraid I was going for the wrong reasons. But now with no regrets, I’m glad to say I’ve definitely made the right decision.

The Experience. Going into missions, I didn’t know what to expect really, especially with it being my first. I had many misconceptions about being a missionary. I thought it was going to be rough and unsanitary, staying in unclean houses and working in village-like conditions. Another stereotype I had was that missions was all about saving lives, but little did I know, I was so wrong about everything. God blessed me with comfortable living and working conditions and a mission to work away from the idea of saving lives. As the weeks continued, my heart matured but also weakened at the same time. I matured in the way that I learned to trust God for everything does happen for a reason. At the beginning of missions, we were not financially supported by our churches but with trust in God, we were able to find a variety of ways to find financial support. In another case, one of the camps we were planning to attend, the BB Camp, got canceled due to a typhoon. Previously before the camp, we spent long days preparing dances, worship, dramas and taking care/developing friendships with other kids. At first I was disappointed but God helped me realized that if the camp was still schedule to continue, my body would collapse from lack of strength and energy. My heart also weakened, not for God, but for the people of Hong Kong. Everyday, I saw people with struggles, mainly family and school related. It was very common for teenagers to have an unhealthy relationship with their parents, sometimes because of school. On the last morning of my gospel camp, I remember fellowshipping with a group of students for devotions.  Then after when prayer requests were being asked, they started to describe and cry about the enormous amount of pressure they received from school and family. My heart went out to them but I didn’t know how to comfort them. On another occasion, the team was on the way home and split into two groups to take taxis. In one taxi, Dan, Alex, and Steve were talking to the taxi driver about his life and family. The driver shared that he works 7 days a week and he only believes in himself when asked his religion. He had a wife and 3 kids but tragically they left him 3 years ago without any notice or consent. He has not seen them since but the most painful aspect of his story was that he said, “This is how Hong Kong is.”

God answered my prayers. One of the reasons why I wanted to go to Hong Kong for missions was to get a sense of how God has been working there. After this trip, my searching was found. I was able to serve two churches and through both churches, I was able to witness astonishing works by God. At the first church, Pang’s church, we worked with twenty to thirty 6th-8th graders. It was amazing to see how passionately driven they desired to serve God, especially at that age. One Sunday afternoon, we went street evangelism with Pang’s church in Sha Tin. We were there to provide entertainment while the kids of Pang’s church would walk up to bystanders and try to share the gospel with them. With no fear, the kids spread out and evangelized to anybody who would listen. The same group of kids also formed a mission team to Thailand. At the other church, the Sha Tin Baptist Church, where we spent the majority of our time, I was able to experience God’s wonders through just one service. It was a Saturday night and my body felt weaker than normal. The speaker just finished her sermon and continued with an after call. She asked the congregation if anyone would like to accept God or renew their faith. About two thirds of the sanctuary stood up. I was in awe that, that many people actually stood up. Following the after call was one last song. I started singing but halfway through the song, I stopped and began to observe my surroundings. No longer did my body feel weak and my eyes seemed to open. I was in awe watching how two different cultures, people from America and people from Hong Kong were able to worship God under one song, under one roof. I exactly remember that I was standing behind the last row next to a complete stranger. We looked at each other and began to worship God. I could feel the presence of God working in between us as we no longer worshiped as strangers but as brothers.

The Mission itself. Going on missions itself also taught me a lot. Long before training began back in May, I was told that not only do we serve people, but people also serve us. I couldn’t see what my friend meant at that time but now it became clear. Sometimes they would serve us so much that it became a direct translation. A few times, they ordered food for us and then paid for it. I also learned about my own personality. In the beginning of missions, I was not used to the long days of work. In response, I was very cranky and quiet, although I kept it all to myself. As the trip continued, the days were not longer but I adapted to it more. I had to constantly remind myself that the reason I was in Hong Kong was for God. As I realized, the days were not shorter, but more fulfilling.

The Purpose. Earlier, I said I thought missions was all about saving lives. I was disappointed in myself during that time because I felt like I didn’t do anything worthy. Not until the last few days did I realize that I was there for a different purpose. I was there not mainly to share the gospel but to love people. Hong Kong is a place full of unloved broken families. God placed us there to show his love for others through our missions team. After I understood this, I was once again in awe of God and how he planned this.        * ALL THE TIME!

 

                                    Your Brother in Christ,

                                                                                                                                                  Christopher Chin
      

PS: Thank you once again for supporting me and please email me if you have any questions!! Sorry about being so late with the update.

(remember the music? dedicated to Dan L.)


Monday, August 21, 2006

The DD (Dimness Disease)

The dimness level of the missions team has traveled overseas and influenced the Hong Kong people.

Proof:  

1.  http://www.xanga.com/audreyming

     COCKROACHMON! (a drawing by Jake L.)

2. Dimness at Max Level
    (watch me as i can't dance)  thanks wing for the vid
  


i dont know why i posted this video on my own xanga, i thiiiink... i just like to roast myself.
(spin, spin, spin)


...missions update will be coming soon.


Tuesday, May 09, 2006

A Breakdown of my Schedule Before College

where are you going next year?
SUNY BUFFALO

oh where is that?
in new york

how far is that?
8 hours drive

did you know its cold up there?
YES! I KNOW!


MAY

17  Last day of school
26 Graduation
27-29 NJ Retreat

JUNE

-job at Copley? if i take it, it will be 40 hours a week 
-last month to really spend quility time with friends

This is when it gets Hectic

JULY

-continue job?
-a week of missions prep
16-18 college orientation
20 Leave for Honk Kong

AUGUST

12 Back to America
18-21 STC? just because its only two days before i leave
23 off to college...

I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH EVERYONE BEFORE I LEAVE!!!!!
(even if I don't know you and you read this post.)
 
(jess, your schedule pwns mine)

Thanks for the b-day wishes n gifts!

-CC

Thanks Jenny,

leave your name and

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll tell you what first came to mind when I thought of you
3. I'll tell you something I like about you
4. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
skip 5, unless u ask for it  


Friday, February 24, 2006

TC '06

I'm one week late updating bout TC but I'm just starting to miss it. I went into TC not looking for a spiritual high but for a weekend to bond with God and my brothers. TC this year was very different from past years positively and negatively but for the past few days, I could only think of its negatives. Everything happens for a reason and i shuld learn to trust god and have patience. One of the best part of TC was the Prayer Meetings. Waking up early and walking to prayer meeting with a couple of brothers every mourning was refreshing n rewarding. I'll keep this short and leave you guys with some pictures. I MISSS YOU GUYS!!! -im me even if we never met at TC, sn same as xanga name.

WdUp


FObs hiding behind trashcans


I'll NEEEVER LEEEET YOOOOOOOOUU GOO!!




West Side Story Attack Style


Emo


Worship Team




what is Dan doing? LOL




IlL MIss you Guys..but we still have other meetings



I MISS ALL OF YOU GUYS



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